“out of the darkness, and into the fire… I’ll tell you I love you.”
First post of 2011. Probably one of the few, knowing my track record at least. So many things are floating around in my head that could be typed out to read, but I know I will inevitably forget something. Hallelujah for editing, eh?
2010 was such a whirlwind of emotions and relationships… beginnings and endings… and overall ups and downs. The introduction of the most wonderful guy I’ve met in my twenty-one (then twenty) years of existence would definitely be the single greatest memory of the year. Having changed my life in such a numerous amount of ways and allowing me to grow with him and having someone to essentially share almost every day of my life with makes me happier than I ever thought I’d be at 21. Not only has this relationship affected the both of us, it’s also impacted those around us, although I don’t think the effect on them was nearly as pleasant. I’m not fond of the friendships lost and the overall degree of discomfort between his friends and us these days, nor am I happy that there doesn’t seem to be anything that can rectify the situation. I guess the most upsetting thing is how someone can lie to your face and tell you everything is okay between you and them, but then say hurtful things to others about you, post negative things publicly and essentially direct them at you, or just be completely rude towards you. It’s one thing when you tell somebody that they’re immature and you are on a level where you have the ability to say that. But, when you act like a child and disrespect someone continuously and continue to tell them that they are the one(s) in the wrong… that is just… unfortunate. I know wishing is a waste, but I really do wish things were different.
At least my team is on the way to their 7th Superbowl win. Go Steel.
