posted on 02.09.10 Day 1: 10 Things You Want To Say To 10 Different People.

Guys:

#1. When I first met you in high school, I never seriously considered the possibilities of our future. I was never optimistic because I never thought I’d have the opportunity with you that I’ve gotten. I’ve never been happier to have taken the chance I took, and I am so glad that I’ve gotten to share so many experiences and time with you. I will always love you.

#2.  Fuck. With every day that goes by, I still think about you at least once. I will always be filled with regret for the things that I did to hurt you, and I will always miss you. No matter what I do, or how hard I try, you will always have a place burned into my heart. It’s not by choice, but there isn’t anything I can do to feel differently. Even though the love I have for you is old love, it still makes me think every day… 

#3. Why are you such a whore? I trusted you with every part of me that I had, and it clearly didn’t mean shit to you. I gladly gave up months without you, *knowing* that you would come back. I rarely find the energy to waste on hating someone, but I really do hate you for what you’ve done. I really hope it was all worth it to you, because it sure was hell for me. Thanks a million, jackass.

#4. I’m not really sure where we stand as friends… our relationship is pretty awkward. Occasional texts and messages on Facebook, but never long conversations like we used to have. I’m not sure if I ever loved you, but I did appreciate what we had together. The odds were against us though, and I sincerely doubt that we would have ever made it. But, getting to know you and spending time with you was worth the memories. I’m sorry it didn’t last and I just can’t believe how much you’ve changed.  

#5. You. You drive me absolutely nuts. Before this year, whenever I was around you I could hardly stand it. All I wanted to do was be with you, but there were so many things holding us apart. I always wanted you, and I know it was the same for you… you could feel it in the air. Sometimes I get sad that it never worked out for us, because you were always my weakspot… in some ways you still are. I’ve finally gotten over the feelings I had for you, but I’m scared to let myself be around you again because I doubt I’ll be able to keep those feelings out of my head. Damn you… ugh.

Girls:

#6.  I’m sorry. I don’t know how we went from being like sisters to not talking at all. I miss you, but I don’t. I have times where I’m like, “I wish my partner in crime was here.” But, then I have times where I’m like, “Wow, you are the most annoying person on the planet.” Fuck. I know it’s something wrong with me, and I’m sorry that it’s pretty much ruined our relationship, but I do miss you.

#7. I really did not like you at first. At all. Ever. I was convinced you were “the other woman” and eventually, you were. But after all the drama and bullshit, we started talking. That’s when I realized how valuable of a friend you are. I wouldn’t give up being friends with you for anything, and I’m sorry we hardly talk anymore. Let’s make it a point to start getting together more often. Wunderbar. (Shit, that gives it away :p)

#8. You are one of the people I never saw being exceptionally good friends with. I love that no matter how much or little we hang out, we’re always still close. I love that we almost never have conflicts and that we’re an incredibly good team. You’d be best friend status if I took the time to rank ‘em, but I know you already know that. You’re one of the few women that I trust, and I can’t wait until it’s time to live it up in the sun. 

#9. Bitch, I still have no words for you.

#10. I don’t know where we went wrong either, but I really miss our adventures and craziness. You made growing up a lot of fun, and I’m really glad I have so many memories with you. I miss our relationship sometimes, but I’m glad we’ve both been able to grow with such supportive people around us. I really do wish you all the best.  

$10 says Erin Dechowitz is going to be able to correctly label each and every one of these people.